Pondering

My friend and I were laughing and joking around ... then 10 minutes after, I was in the bathroom crying and she was being escorted out the door. She was just let go from the company. Although she got to my nerves everyday ... we scream at each other ... we give smart@ss answers to each other ........ at the end of the day, we are still friends. When I found out about the whole thing, it didn't sink in til after I did the task I was asked my management to do. I felt so bad, I wanted a hug from hm but of course, I had to be at my desk til that task was done.

Grabe, some things can end just like that. Tulad nga ng kasabihan, the only things permanent in this world are change and the end (it's supposed to be "death" but let's make it less morbid). Although we're enjoying stuff now, it will eventually stop ... either it changes or it ends. Here's a question ... knowing that things will eventually vanish ... would you still want to invest in something that will be gone? or would you distance yourself to save you from the pain of losing something?

If you choose to invest in something, you will exert time, effort, energy, thought, etc ... which may either make you happy or cause you grief ... but will definitely give you something to remember when it changes or ends. If the memories are happy, it will be something you will long for. If the memories are painful, it will be something you will want to forget.

If you choose to distance yourself, you won't be exerting anything ... nothing will cause you pain but that is only because you have no good feelings to compare it to. (gets? pano mo malalaman na pain un if you never experiences happiness?)

I guess, this is like what Tennyson was saying ... "'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." but his is more geared towards love. My question was more general. Just things in general. Life in general.

Grabe, off topic na. Okay, bye for now. Gonna go back to playing my game.

hahahahaha

Temporary wrist tat, lol =P

- Courtesy of JM -

Movies I want to watch

• The Forbidden Kingdom
  
• Bangkok Dangerous
• Wanted
• X-Files
• Mirrors
• Anime movies (I forgot the titles)

For now, it's back to Shippudden for me! =)

Survey from friendster #5

1.Name someone who can always make you smile?

~ JM

2. What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?

~ working

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3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

~ having a chat with JM while watching Naruto

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4. What did you do last night?

~ had a chat with JM and watching Naruto

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5. Explain why you last threw up?

~ because Lea and I were trying to outdrink each other ... well, we weren't pacing ourselves so yeah, we threw up

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6. What color is your hair brush?

~ i have a red one in my bag, a blue one at work, and a brown one at home

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7. Have you text voted for an American Idol?

~ once before, but I think that was 2 seasons ago

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8. Hot tea or Iced tea?

~ sweetened iced tea

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9. What was the weather like today?

~ warmish in the morning and afternoon, then rained at night

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10. Where did your last hug take place?

~ home

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11. What are you excited for?

~ exams, lol

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12. Closest thing to you that is green?

~ idk, my room is currently dark

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15. Are you very random?

~ uhm, no? yes? i don't know

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16. Do you want to get your hair cut?

~ yep. but i don't know what style.

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17. Are you over the age of 25?

~ a few months over the age of 25

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18. Do you talk a lot?

~ generally, no. but if i'm comfortable with the person i'm talking to, then yeah.

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19. Does your screen name have an x in it?

~ nope

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20. Do you know anyone named Stephanie?

~ yep

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21. Do you make up your own words?

~ LOL .... yeah.

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22. Are you ticklish?

~ nope =( boring.

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23. Are your ears pierced?

~ Yep

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24. Bar soap or body wash?

~ depends. i use both. i use whatever i feel like using.

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25. Are you a jealous person?

~ haha. yeah. i am right?

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26. What brand of shampoo do you use?

~ i use 2 brands

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27. Do you have curly hair?

~ Nope, very straight

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28. Where did you go today?

~ work, grand central, queens, movies

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29. What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?

~ juice

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30. What do you say a lot?

~ pucha

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31. Red or White Wine?

~ neither, not a big fan of wine

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32. Do you think you are pretty?

~ no ... panget baboy!

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33. What are you doing tonight?

~ sleeping!

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34. Who was your last missed call?

~ Tiffany

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36. Do you have a nickname?

~ yeah, i guess, people have their special names for me that only they could call me that, haha

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37. Are you a heavy sleeper?

~ Only when I'm tired

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38. What are you listening to?

~ Naruto!

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39. Is there anyone you like right now?

~ yep

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40. When was the last time you did the dishes?

~ last night

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41. Did you cry today?

~ Nope

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42. How big is your bed?

~ enough

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43. Do you know someone with the same birthday as you?

~ yep ... 2 cousins and 2 friends ... so yeah. i do.

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44. How many pictures are hanging in the walls of the room you are in?

~ not really hanging but more like taped to the wall. haha. i don't want to put holes in my wall. i have 6 pictures taped to my wall

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45. Does anyone like you?

~ well, from what i heard, yes. lol. right? =P

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46. Do you collect anything?

~ gray hair? if you'd like to see it, just look at my head. haha

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47. Last time you went on a date?

~ date? what's that? is that a dish? or a type of animal? lol. but no, haven't gone on a date in a while.

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48. What is on your mouse pad?

~ nothing

Survey from Ara 5

1.Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

* yep

2. How long have you been breathing?

* almost 25 years and 4 months

3. What have you learned lately?

* hmmm, a lot.

4. How many pillows do you like to use?

* i currently use 3

5. Do you like blue cheese?

* with hot wings!!

6. Do you trust people too easily or not enough?

* not too easily

9. What's the color of the soap in your bathroom?

* green

11. Do you ever bite your lip?

* a lot

12. What brand of body lotion do you use?

* vaseline

13. Should country music die?

* no.

14. When was the last time you cried?

* this morning

15. Are you ticklish?

* nope =(

16. Are camera phones worth it?

* hmmm, k lang

17. Are there too many commercials on tv?

* i don't watch tv too much

19. When was the last time someone said something that really bothered you?

* lol, i can't remember

20. Do you have a crazy side?

* yep ... some know it exists but very few people see that ;)

21. Do you ever keep arguing even when you know you’re wrong?

* sometimes. depends on who i'm arguing with.

22. How did you wear your hair today?

* bun

23. Do long distance relationships work?

* NO

24. Scuba diving or Skydiving?

* i wanna try both.

26. Do you put your subject while you type the bulletin or after

* after

27. What are you listening to?

* watching naruto right now

28. Is any part of your body sore?

* not really

29. Is there someone you want to fight with?

* nope

30. Are you missing anyone?

* yep

31. What were you doing an hour ago?

* watching naruto

32. Are you outgoing?

* yeah, but only to a crowd that i'm really comfortable with

33. Where do you wish you were right now?

* back home

34. Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?

* not that I know of

35. What's the closest blue thing to you?

* my shirt

36. Can you do a split?

* when I was still taking taekwondo classes

37. When was the last time you held someone’s hand?

* Do paws count? If paws count... then this morning. LOL. but seriously, uhm, Wednesday.

38. Do you part your hair in the middle?

* sometimes

39. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

* Lea

41. Did you date someone you regret dating?

* hahaha

42. What is your natural hair color?

*black.

43. What makes a really good song?

* great lyrics, good beat

44. Ever made banana pancakes?

* attempted to. it was okay ... palatable, edible.

45. Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings?

* if it's something little, no. if it's something that could possibly ruin the relationship, then I say something.