goodbye mommy ...

since wednesday, we were preparing a powerpoint and video presentation for friday night. the powerpoint is a compilation of pictures since my grandma was a baby until she passed away. the video was interviews from different people including my lola. then, come friday ... my cousins and i set-up the laptop and projector and showed presented the powerpoint to people at the wake. i saw people crying upon seeing it. they said they missed mommy. then when i talked to joe (our psychic friend), she said that my lola also cried when she saw the presentation we made.
during the mass, i was already crying. the whole time, i was thinking that my lola is really really gone. the priest gave a great homily. i loved the way he infused comedy with something so serious. later on, i found out from joe who was videotaping everything that saturday, that my lola was there. she was standing near her body and was really glowing white. at the end of the ceremonies at the church, she was waving to everyone ... as if saying her final goodbye. then she sent flying kisses to everyone. joe cried when she saw that, and said that if only we could see that, we would've cried as well.

during the final ceremonies at the memorial park (cemetery) we had a lot of "rituals"/practices, for example ... releasing doves and butterflies. it was so cute that the butterflies that ate kaye, deius and i freed didn't fly away. some went to different relatives and some were just hovering over the casket. joe said that during this time, my lola was there and there were also "other beings" ... i think angels. they were also glowing white (and of course other usiserang souls). when we released the doves and baloons, the number of "other beings" increased and they were all clapping and rejoicing.


during the wake, my 3 yr old cousin nicole always says "di patay si lola, tutulog lang!" (lola is not dead, she's just sleeping). she would even get mad if someone says that my lola is dead. anyways, after the casket was sealed and lowered in the ground, we saw nicole standing 5 ft away from the casket. my aunt went near her and hugged her then we came near her. she was saying "wala na si lola" (lola is gone). her mom said that she realized it when the casket was closed, sealed and lowered. we took her from my aunt, and i sat her between me and ate kaye. we were telling her not to cry coz mommy is in her heart. i told her that lola is still with us watching over us but we just can't see her, she said "hindi, wala na lola ko. patay na." (no, my grandma is gone. she's dead) then while she's crying, she would call out "lola! lola!" but later on, when we got to the house, we asked her where our lola is. she would happily say "na kay jesus".


oh yeah, and also, when we got home. one of the butterflies we freed was also at home. it went home with my grandpa. cute, aint' it??

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by the way, thanks to all my friends who came to my grandma's wake. super thanks. i know that you really care. =)