i'm back home!

when the captain announced that it will be only 20 minutes til we land in manila, i almost cried. those 20 minutes were the longest 20 minutes in my entire life. i was looking outside the window ... i saw makati, pasig river, lasalle ... i then thought "is this for real? am i really back home? asteeg!!" then soon, i felt the wheels of the airplane make contact with the ground. "totoo na toh! i'm home!"

as soon as i got off the plane, i raced to the baggages, got my stuff, and headed out. i went to the waiting area and saw jc. grabe, i was super happy to see him. i asked him where mama is, he said back in the hospital & he's there with ate kaye. then i see the pajero head toward where we were. i saw them ... ate kaye, gabby, anne. i was thinking, "oh my god!! my cousins!! thank you lord for letting me see them again!!". i wanted to hug them as soon as i saw them but instead, i just put my carry on down and instructed the guy helping me to put the box at the back. while he was doing that, ate kaye went to the back and i hugged her. after, we raced to the hospital coz they said my grandma is in a critical condition.

we saw my uncle & his family at the parking of the hospital so i hugged my cousins there. then we went up to my grandma's room together. as soon as we got in the room and i saw my grandma, i burst into tears. i didn't think the condition was that bad. my mom hugged me as soon as she saw me then i held my grandma's hand. i felt so frustrated and helpless coz i can't do anything. she can barely open her eyes, she can't talk (coz it drains her energy too much), she can't hear well (coz her hearing aide broke and the replacement my mom ordered is not yet done). i tried telling my grandma that i was there by speaking directly to her ears. but she didn't respond. later on, after much praying, my tita les said to her (on my grandma's left) that i was here. then she slightly slightly opened her eyes and said "ninna? ninna!" then i went to her foot so she could see me. then i went to her side and kissed her. i was crying at that time coz she was really really having a hard time.

i was rubbing my grandma's foot while fanning her. then she waved her hand/fingers at us as if saying "bye bye!". she was trying so hard to remove oxygen mask. then later on, our friend joe who's a psychic said that she saw my grandma "leave" but she went back coz she can't go coz we're holding her back. when joe saw her, she looked happy and contented to go. i cried harder when she waved goodbye to us and said "tama na" (or "enough")

later on, my cousins and i were talking outside the room, then my uncle peeped and called me. when i went in, my grandma was wide awake. then i showed myself to her and my aunts & my grandparents' siblings said "see! we told you ninna is here!" then i went to her side and gave her a kiss & hug. she was just staring at me as if she can't believe i was there. then she with the little energy she has, she placed her hand on my cheek and pulled me to her and she gave me a kiss. she did this at least 6 times before i left. then her sister was saying "wow! andito na yung favorite apo mo! at may kiss pa! inggit naman kami!" i cried more and more everytime she pulls me closer to her or when she squeezes my hand. she even managed to say "kelan ka dumating?" after this, she was sorta energetic. she motioned for us to get a paper and pen so she can write. when we got her the paper and pen, she told us to go home, or eat out ... it was funny/cute/touching that she still has the energy to worry about all of us even if her condition is that bad. later on, we then had to leave so we all gave her a kiss and hug and told her that we'll be back the following day.

when i got home, i opened the box and gave the kiddos their pasalubong. for everyone else, it's just chocolates. then i saw my misha ... she had a ribbon clipped to her ear .. she was so adorable. as soon as she saw me, she was panting and moving towards me. i picked her up and her legs instantly grabbed onto my arms. she was licking me like crazy. so i guess she still remembers me! she actually slept beside me. everytime i'd wake up, she's still there. and when i move, she would look up and stare at me with those round banlagish eyes then rest her head again towards my direction.

i woke up around 5ish AM coz my grandpa went to our room looking for the directory. then we talked on what the plan is for today. my mom doesn't want me to drive yet accdg to my grandpa, but i wanna drive already. so ... yeah, i will still drive. i haven't driven in a long time.

so there, i'm just kinda waiting for the clock to turn then i'll take a bath. oh yeah, i also wanna share ... the door was left slightly open (coz my aunt just came in). then misha was trying to open the door and go down. then i called her ... i said "misha, don't go down. i just got back, spend time with me" (shempre in tagalog) then she went back in the room and jumped on my bed ... went to my lap and started to lick my arms. and now, she's on my bed near my foot with her head hanging over the bed and looking at the door. as if she's thinking, "i wanna go out, but mama ninna said to stay with her" ... la lang, ang cute lang!