old emails 01

i was going through my old emails ... saw this email from ate kaye. made me cry. i really miss my cousins. really really miss them. but alas, all i can do is talk to them online ... well, better than nothing.

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naku eto ok naman..sad parin shmpre noh..lalo na seeing the kids na malungkot.. trisha would always say na ..ate kaye pag 10 yrs old na ko babalik na sila ate ninna ..then gabby nmn would say na, ako dapat top1 para babalik na si ate.. so ayun, minsan naiiyak tlga ko kc nakakalungkot tlga.. kya nga we plan to bring the kids out for a swimming kht sa club filipino lang para mdyo malibang libang nmn sila... sbi nga ni daddy dapat libangin sila para di sila mashdo maging emotional. kaya ayun..

hay lam mo ba minsan itetext pa kita using ur globe numner.. wala lang ..ang weird tapos bigla ko maiisip ..tang-ina wala ka na pla dito..so ayun, sadness sets in..

pero fuck, ang hirap ng set-up noh lalo na we grew up together..tayo nila jude and other cousins and ang dami na rin kasi nating pinagdaanan..pati sina gabby mula baby at mula pagkapanganak eh tayo na ang kasama.. shiyet kakalungkot.

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oh well ... life. i'm just looking forward to the time i'm gonna be with them again.