ninna ... call home (e.t. isdatchu? joke.)

talked to my family last sunday. i didn't think i'd cry upon hearing my uncle's voice, but i did! well, i pretty much cried upon hearing everyone's voice. and while i was talking to them ... we also had the webcam on ... they can see me cry. i can see them one by one. haay. when i talked to my lola, my gosh ... we were both crying like crazy. then my cousin told me not to cry and be strong so that mommy (that's what we call my lola/grandma) could draw strength from our family. my my my. hard times. i also heard my mom crying. i really miss my cousins. all of 'em. i miss pinchin and pag nanggigigil me with my lil cousins (joanna, katle, mabby, kathy boom, irish ... well .. they're not lil anymore but still younger).

i wish things would be better. thanks to those who has been emailing me and telling me everythin' will be alright. i really really appreciate it.