optimism

though i'm going through a lot now, i'm still thankful for a lot of things. for every negative thing, there's a positive equivalent/correspondent.

my grandma is sick ( i don't think i need to explain why this is negative)
- her condition gives me a reason to go back to the philippines (i just hope i get home early enough)

when i called home, i heard her in the background telling my mom that she wants to talk to me but can't coz it's too hard for her coz of her phlegm
- at least i know that she wanted to speak to me
- it proves that she's still fighting and not giving in to her cancer
- just the mere fact that i heard her voice in the background sorta eases my worries a little

marc WAS in the hospital (he's home now, so hooray!!)
- the thing didn't happen when he's already in his dorm which is like 2-3 hours away from here and would make things harder
- he saw his cousins/relatives more often than usual coz they visited him
- his job was to basically eat (though hospital food isn't the best in the world)rest, sleep. oh yeah, he can watch tv or dvds whenever he wanted to.
- people were able to show how much they love him (including me!)
- i think everyone got closer (i THINK)
- we were able to spend more time with him before he goes of to college

a certain someone not giving the care/love (i know) i deserve
- my family (in the philippines) and i are close
- i know the value of taking responsibility for your own actions
- i know what i'm NOT gonna be like when i grow up
- living in new york & having "freedom"

i'm "alone" in new york
- made me stronger (not physically of course)
- i'm sure that my family loves me and misses me like hell (and of course i feel the same way towards them)
- "you won't know what you've got til it's gone" ... yeah, it pretty much applies to me. i realized that i took a lot of people/things for granted but being far from them opened my eyes
- found someone really special (i guess i'm not so alone after all)
- learning how to stand on my own

either there's really something positive in all those or i'm just being way too optimistic. hehe. well, whatever. all i know is, tragedies will happen one way or another but what matters the most is how we deal the situation. remember this ...

LIFE IS:
10% --> what happens to you
90% --> how you react to it
** we have no control over that 10% that God wants to happen. but what we do have control in is the bigger 90% chunk. that 90% would define us. that 90% would be our companion in either succeeding or messing up our future.