bad dreams

I dunno why ... but i'm back to my "old sleeping habit". It's where I wake up in the middle of the night ... sometime between 1-3 AM ... then it would usually take me an hour before I can sleep again. To make the matters worse, I had super bad nightmares. I dreamt that he was sneaking his ex into the house in the middle of the night then makes sure that she's gone by morning so that no one would find out that they've been having an affair. But the worst nightmare that happened last night was when my family died (*knock on wood*). I woke up crying coz of that nightmare. I thought it was over, but when I went back to sleep, the story in the nightmare continued. It was like a movie I can't control ... all I could do was watch and cry.

When my alarm went off, I felt so heavy. I was so scared that the nightmare might come true. I hope it doesn't.