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no matter how sad i get ... i can't show that emotions got the best of me. i can't show tears. i can't afford to be weak. no evidence of depression. definitely no emotional breakdown. i have to be tough ... be strong, be optimistic and be prepared for everyone. that's how i should be.

... at the end of the day though, i'm still a little girl at heart. longing to be with her family. putting on a happy face and pretending to have strong spirits to be the source of strength of others. there are times i can't hold back the tears. i still cry in my bed, til i just drift into sleep and live my dreams.