mah first two days in NY

so ... i got through my first two days in new york. kinda rough but got through. i spent my 2 days with amazing people, they just met me but they're really nice. a shout out to tito dan, love and dana!!

anywayz, i gotta deal not only with lookin' for a final place to stay at. my mind got so messed up coz i'm lookin' for a job ... tryin' to adjust to people (oh man ... "they" weren't kidding when they said it was different!) ... findin' my way around places ... makin' friends ... determining whether the person is real or just bitchin' around ... worrying bout 'em flirts back in PI ... weighing out the past, present, future and realizing a lot of things along with that ... forcin' myself to get along with people i can't stand ... swallowing my pride and putting aside dreams for now ... thinkin' of what to do and how to handle certain situations that always bothered me but i just let pass by coz of immediate convenience

gosh ... the thing keepin me sane is my family. the thought that my brothers will follow me soon here scares me coz i don't want them to go through the shit i'm going through. when they come here, i want everything to be smooth. i don't want them to worry about a place to stay at or how they'll get money for everything. i want to provide them everything they need and be able to satisfy their whelms.

i received a message from my cousin jude ... dude, if ever you're reading this ... thanks so much for the concern. i know that we ain't physically together, but man! i feel ya!! thanks for the support! and of course, same goes with ate kaye, tita lulu, and my mom who never fails to send me their greeting and concern for my welfare through YM or text. your messages mean the world to me. it's so true ... at the end, YOUR FAMILY WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU!! that's been sooooo proven and tested by time.

well, that's it for now! i've gotta sleep coz i have an interview tomorrow! wish me luck! pray for me!