independent and dependent

My gosh ... I've never been so independent and dependent at the same time.

Here I am in a new country with new people, new culture, new ways, new food (well sorta) ... well, you get what I'm drivin' at. I barely know anyone ... as in really know a person. I've made some friends but not really close friends. Just acquaintances. There are very few people I really get to talk to and tell my stories and emotions to. hohum. I left my family, boyfriend, and friends back home. So in a way, I am independent. I have to watchout for myself. I have to take care of myself. I have to support myself. I have to work my ass off to survive. But, like what I said, I am new. I have to ask people how to go to certain places ... I have to ask on how to do things ... I have to consult them on my decisions .... so I am dependent. hell. I don't know. hahaha.

Since I've started reading a book from Sean Covey (the son of Stephen Covey ... author of 7 Habits of Highly Effective People) some things are kinda clearer. His book "7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens" is really good. Wag na umangal, yeah ... I still want to consider myself a teen. hehe. Anyway, I'm done reading Habit 1 ... be proactive. it soooo fits me. hehe.

Haay ... I miss everyone sa PInas ... my mom, Brian, JC, Misha, mommy, daddy, Mell, Ate Kaye, Gabby, Tricia, Nicole, Jude, Jaline, Mikko, basta lahat ng cousins and aunts and uncles and family ko. I miss my etel friends, my opmc friends, my lasalle friends, my stc friends, my other friends. I miss Puerto Galera. I miss Tagaytay. I miss everything. even the traffic. hehe.