Mood: Senti pero cynical

Weird noh? I am in a senti mood, pero cynical. I was talking to my friend yesterday for like an hour about relationships ... ups, downs ... direcho, tagilid ... long distance, near ... cynicism, faith ... honesty, hiding things ... etc. Nakakatawa because I think that's one of the most serious conversations we've ever had in our nine years of knowing each other. I mean, we've had serious conversations before but that was different, parang intense.

She asked me a question that was asked by another friend who I had a similar conversation with ... question was "bakit ka cynical?" ... I always draw a blank with that question. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just too busy with school that I tend to not care about other things? I haven't really gone through anything traumatic that would push me to the cynical side. Could this be the reason why I don't want anything serious thing aka commitment? Ewan. Basta, all I know is at this point, I don't think I want to be super committed. Maybe semi, pwede pa? Maari. Depends on the set-up. But nothing long lasting or nothing that will be "forever".

Pucha ... I should be studying right now. Not blogging. Ok fine. I'll stop it here. I have other stuff I wanna just vent out ... pero I have to discipline myself. Study now, surf the net later. LOL.