uncomfortable!!

it's normal for people to say "hi", "how are you", "how you doing", "have a good day"; it's even normal to smile or wave as a form of an acknowledgement. courtesy na un kung baga. but i've been having "weird" incidents that really made me feel uncomfortable.

example 1: there are 2 entrances to my office's building, front & back. shortcut ung back so i take that most of the time. there this suv that's always parked sa pathway to the back entrance wherein the guy always opens his door when i'm the one passing, and says hi. no harm, ok lang ung hi. one day though, i was walking near the suv coz i thought no one was there so that means, no one will say hi. (brief background: yokong nakikipagchikahan sa di ko kilala, hehe) pero biglang bumukas ang pinto and the guy was there, he said hi. i smiled back and said goodmorning. afterwards, he said something like this "oh finally i saw your face up close. i've always wondered how you looked. you really have a beautiful face". **uncomfortable!!!** so i just said thank you and then i smiled and said have a good day then i walked away na. it could be that he's just trying to be nice, pero like what i said, it makes me feel uncomfortable.

example 2: yesterday, i was at the bus terminal, there was this guy who keeps on showing up in front of me. i dunno if he was looking at the bus schedule behind me or he was looking at me. but everytime he looks though, napapatingin ako tas magsasalubong kami ng tingin tas iirapan ko sha. haha. sungit! anyway, nung dumating na ung bus na sasakyan ko, i stood up and went on the bus. i sat sa edge ng 3-seater chair. when i looked around, he was also getting on the bus then he sat right next to me. **uncomfortable!!** sa loob loob ko ... "tsong! may space pang isa, sana wag ka dumikit!" but of course, i didn't say that. anyway, his right hand was on his right knee but he placed his left hand in between us. **uncomfortable!!** then i felt something touching the side of my thighs. i didn't want to assume anything so i considered the possibility that it was the edge of each chair space (kasi nakaprotrude ung mga dulo ng chair where it meets the next chair) i can't look either coz ayokong mahuli na tumitingin. so what i did, was slightly lift myself tas sit again para mabigyan man sha ng hint to remove his hand. then for a couple of seconds, i won't feel anything, then biglang meron ulit. i thought, it might be that my weight is spreading evenly sa chair kaya natoutouch ulit ung edge na nakaprotrude. so i was trying to observe the guy through peripheral vision (he looks at me from time to time by the way) then when he was looking towards the other side, i looked in between us. indeed .. his hand was there and really touching the sides of my thigh. **uncomfortable!!** so i was thinking of what i'll do if he suddenly puts his hand on my thigh or grab me or something. naisip kong sisikuhin ko sha or susuntukin ko or ung palm ko to his nose. haha. i wanted to go to another chair but the bus was already full. no more space. anyway, i sorta shoved his hand away by sorta pushing him away through my arm. he did move but i felt the "touch" again. when i was near my stop, i pushed the stop signal already then after a minute or 2, he removed his hand and i finally felt air sa side ko. lecheng yan. di ko lam kung namaniac ako or nagfeefeeling lang ako.

example 3: there are mornings wherein there's a guy who always smiles at me everytime i get on the bus. lately though, he waves na din. so, this morning, i got on the bus, after showing the driver my bus pass, i looked straight and looked for a space the sat there. then, i saw right behind the driver (which is positioned at 2 oclock/45 degrees from where i was sitting) waving and smiling at me. he mouthed hi, i just smiled and said hi. then i looked straight ahead so there's no way that our eyes would meet. but i saw him staring or looking at me for a loooooong time (saw it through peripheral vision). **uncomfortable!!** he would even cough from time to time ... it's the kind of cough na "look at me" and not the real cough. but shempre, di ako tumitingin. then i noticed, he was kinda preparing to stand up. eh i know that it wasn't his stop yet coz he gets off the same stop as me. then voila!! he sat beside me. i was thinking ... "what the hell!! hellur .. there's a lot of space all over the bus!! why sit right next to me!!" **uncomfortable!!** now, i'm like cornered coz there's no space on my left, then he's on my right. i can't look straight ahead anymore coz he was right beside me. so i looked to my left. but he was still looking at me, as if trying to start a conversation. **uncomfortable!!** since i don't like talking to people ... i covered my face and pretended to sleep. actually, only the right side of my face. everyone on the left can see that i was wide awake. when i noticed that the bus was already near my stop, i uncovered my face. then he was looking at me again. **uncomfortable!!** he stood up first to gather his stuff (which are on the other side of the bus kasi nga lumipat sha sa tabi ko) the bus stopped to let people out. he was first in line to get off, so i waited for the other lady to walk before me so she would get in between me and the guy. then when i got out, he was there waiting for me. he waved again. i just smiled and walked pass him to go to the other side of the bus terminal to catch my next bus.

is there a sign on my head that says, talk to me? or touch my thigh? ang tinotino naman ng suot ko! i'm fully covered! nothing slutty or revealing! pucha. feeling ba ko? ahaha. or valid ung aking uncomfortable feeling? haaaaaaaaay, buhay!