10 Things

i was tagged by Vince

here are the rules:

- each blogger starts with 10 random facts/habits about themselves
- bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their 10 things and post these rules
- at the end of your blog, you need to choose 10 people to get tagged and list their names
- don't forget to leave them a comment telling they're tagged, and to read your blog

here are 10 random facts about me in no particular order

1. I went to an all girls Catholic school since prep/kindergarten until high school. When I was in elementary, I thought girls who liked girls were disgusting. When I went to highschool, that changed. I became one of the girls who had crushes on other girls. Nothing serious though. Plus, I wasn't the butchy type. Kikay na simple pa din.

2. In college, freshman and sophomore year ... the only time you'd catch me talking to a guy was if it was about school. Never anything personal. Well, what do you expect, it was like a whole new dimension. Then, I started to widen my horizon and talked to guys end of sophomore year and had my first date (and boyfriend) at the end of junior year.

3. I wanted to be a doctor but then I had a boyfriend and that sort of changed my plans. Then, we broke up after a year, then got back together, then I had another "career opportunity" which I ignored because I didn't want to be far from him. (Stupid move ba kamo? Yeah, I know).

4. I have broken ... things. Things such as mannequins, vases, commandments, laws, lol.

5. I have several beliefs:
a. "Whatever goes around, comes around." aka may karma. haay naku. believe me, I'm scared
b. "I don't get mad, I get even. " The person I'm getting even with may or may not know that I'm getting even, that's the beauty or horror of it. lol. Yeah, it's an immature thing to do but you know what, whatever was done to me was also probably immature ... gantihan lang yan. I may forgive, but not forget.
c. "Things may not be said, but that doesn't mean it's not known". This was something that started when I first had a boyfriend. There are some things that I wanted to know but when I ask, the answer doesn't seem to be the honest answer ... not because it's not what I wanted to hear, but just because it doesn't fit the other pieces of the puzzle. So ... since ayoko ng away, I just nod my head and ponder on the answer. If ayaw sabihin, that means that person doesn't want me to know for whatever reason. But that doesn't mean that I totally give up that topic. It may come up at another time.

6. Sometimes, I just don't care about people. I put a smiling face on, but deep inside ... wa ako pakialam.

7. I'm one of those people you don't want mad or pissed. I'm normally very pleasant and sweet, but if you piss me off once (like really pissed off), there's no going back. I will always get easily irritated with you, even the slightest thing will annoy me. Even just your mere presence will annoy me. I can be a bitch if I want to. You don't want to see that. The bitchy Ninna has only surfaced on this earth not more than 5 times. You don't want to be the sixth. hahahahaha.

8. I have several fears:
a. for something bad to happen to those I love and care about
b. to die without having experienced the love of a husband and my child
c. to be too scared to take a risk
d. that I won't be able to trust "the one" when he comes along
e. not to see through the major plans (like school, etc)

9. There are some moments in life that would either make you stronger or break you down. But til you actually go through the whole thing, you won't know what the effect is. I have that moment now. There are lots of moments I catch myself thinking about that ... will it make me stronger in the end? I know it will teach me more about life, so I guess ... yeah, it will make me stronger (unless it goes to the other extreme, lol. i hope not.)

10. I miss having my very own someone who I can hang out with ... go out with ... cry to ... laugh with ... spend lots of time with ... call whenever I want to ... visit me or I visit him whenever ... but then again, I don't think my schedule can accommodate a full blown relationship. Hmmm, but that doesn't change the fact that I miss having my own "him".

Now, to tag people:
- KC
- Lea
- Micay
- Ate Kaye
- Lucelle
- Ria C.
- Ria M.
- Nap
- Marvs
- Penny